Tuesday night I spent a good hour scanning wedding pictures and uploading them to facebook. Why you may ask? Because I wanted my husband to have a little reminder of our wedding on our anniversary.
Wednesday, March 10th was our 10th anniversary. I spent the day working at my church and Seth started the day in Kyrgyzstan (don't ask me to pronounce that) and ended his day in Afghanistan. We did manage to chat online with each other for about 20 minutes around 10 am my time, 9 pm Kyrgyzstan time. He sent me a beautiful bouquet of tulips that are next to me right now.
Prior to the 10th I expected to be miserable. I wanted to sulk and cry that I was spending my 10th alone. But God knows more than me and he provided a way for me to not be miserable. Our church secretary was out this week and I filled in for her. I packed up the kids school books and my laptop and had them do school while I worked in the office. My mind was distracted enough that I didn't have time to feel down or depressed. Going to sleep that night was a different story, but not as painful as I thought it would be, much the same as any night.
I'm learning to look at the positive side of things. Seth and I were able to chat for 20 minutes when we had previously thought we weren't going to be able to talk at all. He sent me beautiful tulips which I was not (totally) expecting. We did have an early celebration while we were in Indiana where I received a beautiful necklace and gave him several presents. Many friends wished me a happy anniversary and I spent the day surrounded by friends while I worked at church.
On a side note, I did get a chance to talk to Seth this morning. It was the first time chatting with him since Wednesday morning and the first time speaking on the phone since Sunday night. He arrived safely on his base in Afghanistan but doesn't have his permanent living quarters or internet access yet. So we have a little while longer of minimal contact before he gets his room and internet for his laptop, after that I'm hoping to be able to communicate with him almost every day. We'll see how well that goes! ;)
Friday, March 12, 2010
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Indianapolis
I've been in Indianapolis since Saturday. The kids and I drove the 9 hours here and picked up my husband Saturday night. He had a three day leave from the military and we have had an amazing time. We have gone swimming, shopping, and even went to the Children's Museum of Indianapolis. When I download all the pictures, I'll post them over on the family blog.
Sadly, our time is winding down. With every passing minute we are brought closer to our final goodbye. I'm spending every minute trying not to cry, and I'm failing miserably.
I want to just grab him and take him home with me. But I know I just can't. The kids are in the next room crying over a game and not playing well together. To me, it's a sign of what I'm going to deal with over the next 10 months alone. How do I do it? No relief, no having Dad take them for a while, no man to punish them when they just won't listen to Mom. He won't be home to shovel snow, clean the cat box (he does this for me), fix the heater, lug the 40 pound bags of pellets into the house, fix broken toys, BBQ out on the grill, sit with me in church or hug me when I've had a bad day. Yes, I can and will do most of those things myself, but those last two can only be done by him.
How do I say goodbye to him tonight? How do I let him go and drive away? I'm watching him pack his things right now and it's more than I can bear.
So here's my request to each of you. Please pray for me. Pray for my sanity as I switch to single mom mode. Pray for my strength, my courage, my loneliness, my sadness. Pray for my children as they deal with no Dad around. Pray for my husband as he leaves in 6 days to fly to Afghanistan. Most importantly, pray that during this time, my husband, my children and I grow closer to the Lord and can learn to wholeheartedly rely upon Him.
2 Corinthians 1:9 Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead.
Sadly, our time is winding down. With every passing minute we are brought closer to our final goodbye. I'm spending every minute trying not to cry, and I'm failing miserably.
I want to just grab him and take him home with me. But I know I just can't. The kids are in the next room crying over a game and not playing well together. To me, it's a sign of what I'm going to deal with over the next 10 months alone. How do I do it? No relief, no having Dad take them for a while, no man to punish them when they just won't listen to Mom. He won't be home to shovel snow, clean the cat box (he does this for me), fix the heater, lug the 40 pound bags of pellets into the house, fix broken toys, BBQ out on the grill, sit with me in church or hug me when I've had a bad day. Yes, I can and will do most of those things myself, but those last two can only be done by him.
How do I say goodbye to him tonight? How do I let him go and drive away? I'm watching him pack his things right now and it's more than I can bear.
So here's my request to each of you. Please pray for me. Pray for my sanity as I switch to single mom mode. Pray for my strength, my courage, my loneliness, my sadness. Pray for my children as they deal with no Dad around. Pray for my husband as he leaves in 6 days to fly to Afghanistan. Most importantly, pray that during this time, my husband, my children and I grow closer to the Lord and can learn to wholeheartedly rely upon Him.
2 Corinthians 1:9 Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead.
Monday, February 22, 2010
First Day Back
Yesterday was my first day back to church after being gone for 6 weeks. It wasn't my intention to be gone that long, but with snow storms and sicknesses, 6 weeks was the magic number.
It was so good to see everyone again. I missed worshiping with my church family. I also missed seeing the wonderful Cubbies that I have the pleasure of teaching. When I told the kids that I was glad to be back, but would be gone next Sunday, one child told me that I wasn't allowed to leave again. It warmed my heart to be missed too!
But today has just dragged along! Saturday can't seem to come fast enough. On Saturday, the kids and I are packing up the car and driving to Indianapolis. My husband has been blessed with a three-day pass with the stipulation that he remain in the state of Indiana. His three days are Sunday - Tuesday, but the kids and I are driving Saturday and Wednesday so that we get as much time with him as possible.
I know that when we are there the time will just fly by. But I'm hoping to make every minute count. We already have our hotel rooms booked (yes, 2 rooms), and I'm planning different things to do while we are there. If you have any family friendly suggestions on restaurants or things to do, please let me know!
Seth will be going to Afghanistan on March 8th. I don't know when I will see him again after I leave him on Tuesday night, but that is over a week away and I really want to focus on seeing him first. Oh, and I want to find out what's been sitting in a box on my kitchen counter for two weeks now. It's an anniversary present that he bought for me that I can't open until I am with him. We're going to celebrate our 10th anniversary early, so we've been buying each other gifts and having them shipped here since he can't receive packages where he is. But to have it here for two weeks and not let me have it? So not fair!
It was so good to see everyone again. I missed worshiping with my church family. I also missed seeing the wonderful Cubbies that I have the pleasure of teaching. When I told the kids that I was glad to be back, but would be gone next Sunday, one child told me that I wasn't allowed to leave again. It warmed my heart to be missed too!
But today has just dragged along! Saturday can't seem to come fast enough. On Saturday, the kids and I are packing up the car and driving to Indianapolis. My husband has been blessed with a three-day pass with the stipulation that he remain in the state of Indiana. His three days are Sunday - Tuesday, but the kids and I are driving Saturday and Wednesday so that we get as much time with him as possible.
I know that when we are there the time will just fly by. But I'm hoping to make every minute count. We already have our hotel rooms booked (yes, 2 rooms), and I'm planning different things to do while we are there. If you have any family friendly suggestions on restaurants or things to do, please let me know!
Seth will be going to Afghanistan on March 8th. I don't know when I will see him again after I leave him on Tuesday night, but that is over a week away and I really want to focus on seeing him first. Oh, and I want to find out what's been sitting in a box on my kitchen counter for two weeks now. It's an anniversary present that he bought for me that I can't open until I am with him. We're going to celebrate our 10th anniversary early, so we've been buying each other gifts and having them shipped here since he can't receive packages where he is. But to have it here for two weeks and not let me have it? So not fair!
Thursday, February 18, 2010
God Cares About My Sink
Rebecca and I have known each other forever. She was my maid of honor at my wedding and I was a bridesmaid at hers. Unfortunately, we haven't seen each other for 6 years. Today she stopped by with her husband and her new baby girl who was just a doll! It was so good to see them again.
Earlier this week I posted on facebook how my kitchen faucet was leaking. Rebecca's husband tried to help me online and finally asked, "So... what happens if I tell you that a faucet is really not that hard to replace..." I replied with, "I sit and cry, get mad at being alone, then get over my pity party and fix it." Well, that wasn't good enough.
They were on their way to Lancaster today and decided to stop by and take a look at my sink. It was dripping enough to fill a good size bowl with water over night. After about 5 minutes of looking at it, Daniel came out and said, "How would you feel if I replaced your faucet?" I happen to not like my faucet, so of course I said ok. He pulls out a faucet still in the box and said, "Do you like this one?" What?
Recently they renovated their kitchen and had bought that one on clearance. After buying it they decided on another one and just stuck that in their basement. They brought it with them, just in case, and ended up installing it for me. How cool is that! So not only did I get to spend a wonderful morning with someone I haven't seen in forever, I got my sink fixed in the process.
I am constantly amazed at how God provides for me. Who would have thought that my dripping faucet would have led to reconnecting with Rebecca? I am truly a blessed woman.
1 Peter 5:6-7 Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.
What an idea! God cares about ME! I can give my leaky faucet over to Him and He provides for me! How easy it is to give Him the little things, shouldn't I also give Him my big things too? If God can provide a new faucet, can't He take care of my husband? Of course He can!
Philippians 4:6 And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.
Earlier this week I posted on facebook how my kitchen faucet was leaking. Rebecca's husband tried to help me online and finally asked, "So... what happens if I tell you that a faucet is really not that hard to replace..." I replied with, "I sit and cry, get mad at being alone, then get over my pity party and fix it." Well, that wasn't good enough.
They were on their way to Lancaster today and decided to stop by and take a look at my sink. It was dripping enough to fill a good size bowl with water over night. After about 5 minutes of looking at it, Daniel came out and said, "How would you feel if I replaced your faucet?" I happen to not like my faucet, so of course I said ok. He pulls out a faucet still in the box and said, "Do you like this one?" What?
Recently they renovated their kitchen and had bought that one on clearance. After buying it they decided on another one and just stuck that in their basement. They brought it with them, just in case, and ended up installing it for me. How cool is that! So not only did I get to spend a wonderful morning with someone I haven't seen in forever, I got my sink fixed in the process.
I am constantly amazed at how God provides for me. Who would have thought that my dripping faucet would have led to reconnecting with Rebecca? I am truly a blessed woman.
1 Peter 5:6-7 Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.
What an idea! God cares about ME! I can give my leaky faucet over to Him and He provides for me! How easy it is to give Him the little things, shouldn't I also give Him my big things too? If God can provide a new faucet, can't He take care of my husband? Of course He can!
Philippians 4:6 And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.
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